Happy New Me! Happy New You! Happy New Year!

31 Dec

I blinked and January 1st 2015 stood on my doorsteps. I blinked again and December 31st same year followed. Did it feel the same way to you?

There are less than 13 hours left in this year as I write this post and I’m sure they’ll pass as fast as the rest of them. I’m not lamenting, nor wishing they’d pass by faster because I’m tired of trying to get somewhere, always in search for something and always trying to achieve it. How about just be here in this very moment and enjoy it, without any plans for the next step? How about just let life and time just happen and figure out what to do as it comes? Sounds like a plan?

Ever since I began writing and publishing books I’ve been on the run, always trying to write the next page, the next chapter, the next book. Every story was another journey, another discovery of what I could do and another evolution. All these years my motto was it doesn’t matter who I am or where I come from, but what I leave behind is. I thought I have it all figured out.

Socrates, one of the biggest philosopher to ever grace humanity once said, “I am talking a crock of shit.” I had no idea this expression dated hundreds of years ago and belongs to him, but who am I to argue with him? Needless to say, after some soul searching I realized my motto was a . . . pot of smelly stuff. I had a meltdown because, if you think about it, why would what I leave behind matter more than who I am here and now in this very moment? How will I ever know if what I left behind mattered with no way of seeing it? How am I gonna enjoy it? Think Socrates; does he know how much he touched humankind? Does he know people still remember him centuries later? And if he knows, does it make a difference?

I’m not sure. Frankly I doubt with all my heart it makes any difference to him. He’s gone, like I’ll be gone one day and instead of beating myself up to leave something behind me, I’m going to learn how to live here, now and freaking enjoy it. No more worrying about tomorrow, but live today. No more five-year plans, but rather let the sun soak my skin, the air fill my lungs and the grass touch my feet. 

To A Happy New Me! To A Happy New You! To A Happy New Year (and by Golly, really mean it!!!!)


6 Responses to “Happy New Me! Happy New You! Happy New Year!”

  1. anaatcalin December 31, 2015 at 11:46 am #

    Happy New Yea, Cami! Love you!

  2. ndluebke December 31, 2015 at 6:53 pm #

    Live for this day, for you never know your last. I agree. At the age of 61, I just received news that I probably have MS. Since it does not have a test of it’s own, to say this is what you have, they have to run tests to rule other things out. Anyway, recently, I’ve had the feeling to start reading more and enjoy it So that is what I’m doing. I’ve read 142 books this year and trying to not let the little things bother me so much. My 3 grandbabies were here this last week and we had a fun time. 3 age 9 or under is a handful, but this old house had more joy and tears than it’s seen for a while. All the little hugs and watching Grandma make brownies was such a treat. So I have accomplished the reading but at my pace and my enjoyment. Life can be so good in the middle of tragedy. Hopefully some things will be remembered of me, but the good things that happen now give the little ones good memories too. Happy New Year Camelia.

    • Camelia Miron Skiba February 1, 2016 at 2:32 pm #

      Oh my goodness, I’m sooooo sorry! Reading this now… Are you OOKAY????

      • ndluebke February 1, 2016 at 8:58 pm #

        I have been living with this at least 10 years already, it should have been noticed before but it is what it is. But now that I have been officially diagnosed, I can start treatment and maybe keep it from getting worse. Time will tell. I can still walk but with a cane to keep from falling. My memory isn’t what it used to be but not as bad as it could be. Some other little things. For now, I can still read and put up reviews. Just one day at a time and enjoy the little things in life. I only ask of those who pray to keep me in them and hope to read a lot more books.

      • Camelia Miron Skiba February 4, 2016 at 9:06 am #

        I have you in my prayers, hon! You can only keep your head above the water and truly enjoy each and every day. All my best! ❤

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