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You Before Me

16 May

I know, I know, you think I got that wrong and it’s Me Before You, but, I am not wrong.

Let me explain: a few days ago Patrick, my son and I  were walking the dog and were talking about what should I do now that he is done with college. I told him I feel like all that rush, all that forward moving we went through for the past 12 years of public education came to a halt. Ever since I gave birth to him I’ve been focusing on him, making him my # 1 priority. His education, his wellbeing, his manners, his foundation, all of that has been my work, my goal nothing and no one could ever stop me from reaching it. I had a path and each step brought me closer and closer to the finish line, which we crossed together the minute he held his diploma.

I kept telling him that now he is done with school and I am done worrying (or so I keep telling myself). He is on his path and I am on mine. He will soon start working and will continue chasing his dreams while I need to figure out what to do with my life, my focus, my time. What to fill it with, which direction should I go, what to do. (You can call it a crisis, but I won’t, because I don’t want to jinx it and make it sound even more dramatic than it is. But it is dramatic and anyone who went through what I am going now, will tell you it is a life-altering time in any parent’s life whose child/ren finish their education).

I kept talking while he kept listening. (That’s one of the things I love the most when I spent time with Patrick; he is a great listener). Eventually we turned a corner and I finally stopped talking, waiting for him to say something. And he did, saying, “It’s actually quite simple, Mom. You need to go back to you before me. You before you had me. Find that 24 yr. old woman and see what she’d like to do. Focus on her, help her find her dreams.”

I know his words will remain engraved in my mind for a long time, maybe forever (with my brain’s will) and, while I do not want to be 24 yr. old again, I’d like to rekindle with my old self and see what treasures I’ve buried…you before me: where are you?

 

 

Pat’s Run

4 Apr

For the last day of the Charity Around The World Giveaway Hop I gathered a few photos of past Pat’s Runs I’ve done:

I remember the first year I ran I saw a bunch of soldiers running together, wearing matching t-shirts In Memoriam of…, singing their lungs out and pushing to the finish line. I’ll never forget seeing a former soldier, whose legs have been amputated and ran on spring-type prosthesis. Another one was in a wheelchair…

I felt shameful for all the times I complained about a migraine, or a sore throat or being sick… no pain I’ve gone through could’ve remotely been as bad as those suffered by those men. Since then I take and see pain with different eyes…

Last year my sister traveled from Germany with her husband and they both joined me. We had a blast!

This year Pat’s Run is scheduled for April 21st and as I mentioned in a previous post, my son Patrick will be my running buddy. I’m so exciting about this event, not only because my son wanted to share it with me, but because we give back to the community of great veterans and their families, showing our support and appreciation.

Don’t forget to enter the form below for a chance to win an e-copy of my latest release A World Apart or a hard copy of Boots On The Ground By Dusk, a tribute to Pat Tillman, written by his incredible mother, Mary Tillman.

Good luck!